Saturday, April 25, 2009

Modeling the fossil evidence

i seem to be thinking a lot lately about technology. about how..i dont wanna say addicted, but reliant on technology we are. how accessible it really is. about how at any given moment, i have 300 to 500 dollars worth of technology in my fucking pockets. technology that can access almost any information within seconds. i can touch a screen and get directions to your house, or how to make onion soup. i can see a picture of your house or shop for a book. all with the same ease.

whos to say who really controls this? who monitors it? can Google and Amazon and Myspace REALLY track everything?

and whats real and whats false? what is simulation? i havent studied much of postmodernism but i understand the fact that if you make a copy of a copy of a copy, the quality will eventually get worse. and i understand that images can be altered and the media really truly controls what we see.

in most cases, we have no choice. we either MUST or simply CHOOSE to accept "reality". i have always felt that morality is arbitrary, and now i feel that reality is arbitrary as well. just because I believe something, doesnt mean that YOU do. and im not talking about a system of beliefs, im talking actual EVENTS, such as dinosaurs and people landing on the moon. about the G-spot. about the third type of melanin. does it all exist simply because we BELIEVE in it?

there's glory in subversion
there's glory in destruction
fossils are an invention to serve the technophile
fossils are an invention to preserve the artificial lie
humanity is being coded
existence is uploaded
only simulation exists
to construct the fossil evidence
to preserve the artificial lie
to serve the technophile
they are modeling the fossil evidence
we are the tools of our tools
deconstruct the technophile
there's glory in subversion
there's glory in destruction
we are deconstructing the technophile.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Haus Des Weissen Mannes

Greeting and salutation to hearts which live illuminated by the light of love and are not led astray either by hopes of a heaven or by fear of a hell


Thursday, April 16, 2009

the shape of fear

im afraid of lots of things.

sometimes i think too many things.

sometimes im so afraid of something that i get angry.

im afraid mostly of losing. not like how an athlete is afraid of losing a game, but like afraid of losing control. afraid of losing someone from my life. afraid of losing all that ive worked so hard for.

im afraid of losing my car keys.

today i started helping my company write a new manual for teaching teachers how to teach haircutting. we talked about the differences between convex and concave for at least 45 minutes. it took 6 hours to edit 4 pages. it made me very stressed out, almost shaking. its hard work.

im tired. everything hurts.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

i been gone a long time

I haven't written in a while. On anything.

Life has been kinda hectic. Let's see if I can remember anything that's happened lately.

The state tracked me down on some back taxes I owed and put a garnishment on my wages. Came as a complete surprise, too. One day there was just money gone from my paycheck. Not a big surprise. Haven't been exactly dilligent on my taxes the past few years.

Been working on haircutting a lot. Trying to understand more about it. Working on some big things for my company. Should prove to be a giant step in my career if it goes well.

Whatever. Dunno what else to say. Weather is awesome today, cloudy and gray and coold and kinda windy. Most peoplele

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Thursday, April 2, 2009


Things that are currently bothering me in life-

Fast food bacon
Fast food employees
Female voices
Not enough time to blog
My own procrastination
Lack of money
Greys anatomy, season 2, episode 26
4 year olds with pacifiers
My knees
Devin's singing
Broken trackball on sidekick

Things that I am currently enjoying in life-
Devin's singing
Texts from @jimsomers, no homo
Bands covering the beatles
Bands covering other bands in general
Greys anatomy
My new digital camera
Disembodied, the people and the music. Mostly the people though.
Having a desk and a scanner
Making coffee in the morning but not realy drinking it