Thursday, April 16, 2009

the shape of fear

im afraid of lots of things.

sometimes i think too many things.

sometimes im so afraid of something that i get angry.

im afraid mostly of losing. not like how an athlete is afraid of losing a game, but like afraid of losing control. afraid of losing someone from my life. afraid of losing all that ive worked so hard for.

im afraid of losing my car keys.

today i started helping my company write a new manual for teaching teachers how to teach haircutting. we talked about the differences between convex and concave for at least 45 minutes. it took 6 hours to edit 4 pages. it made me very stressed out, almost shaking. its hard work.

im tired. everything hurts.

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