everything's just wonderful

I've been eating jack in the box a little too frequently.

I try to only buy items that are on sale or discounted with the club card.

I've been drinking a lot of coke, not enough water.

I fell in love again with popsicles.

Still listening to 5 YEAR WINTER every morning on the way to school.

Been giving Devin dollars to buy smencils. A smencil is a pencil that smells good. Each one costs one dollar, and her school keeps the money. The school wins, devin wins, I win.

Sometimes I wish I was a girl so that Fiona Apple and Lily Allen songs could mean more to me.

Polaroid film is becomind increasingly harder to find. Target has not had it the past two times I've been. Scary.

Valentines day is rapidly approaching and I'm glad I have a valentine. She's awesome, for real. Now.. If only I hadn't waited so long to make plans... fuck

this modern love

I love Bloc Party. I just listened to 80 songs. Well.. Some I skipped through but I went through them all. You know what? They have better b-sides than most band's albums.
I saw the first show of Bloc Party's first U.s. Tour. I was there.

I'm sitting at the Mission Viejo mall while Dev devours McDonalds. Yeah I let my kid eat there. My mom let me eat there and look how I fuckin turned out.
I love commerce. I love malls. I love supermarkets. Do I love spending money? Not necessarily. I'm a window shopper. A browser. I suck.

My ipod keeps randomly turning off. Shitty.

Its cold outside. I mean... its not MINNESOTA cold or anything, but for Orange County its cold. Almost too cold.

Finished Brothers & Sisters season two. On to Desperate Housewives season 3.

destroy. erase. improve.

i cannot put into words how frustrated i am at this moment in time.

nothing i am trying to do is working.

fuck your PDF files
fuck my procrastination
fuck sneezing
fuck how cold it is in this room
fuck Martyr AD for not being a band anymore
fuck not being able to control a certain situation
fuck their mind control
fuck your inability to stabilize
fuck my bank account
fuck everyone and everything

its been a long time since i have felt like this, and that feels good to think about. ive grown so much in the past year, probably more than in the 5 years previous in a lot of ways. i still am lacking certain things, but it feels good to be on the right track.

comabox

"A nation of sheep, awake but asleep..."

I like to eat out. At nice restaurants. Well... not like 4 star establishments necessarily, but like Benihana, PF Changs, California Pizza Kitchen, etc. I like to be served. I like someone refilling my fucking water and washing the dishes for me. Ill pay the fucking 40 dollars or whatever so we can enjoy a nice meal once a week or so.

But that's not what I'm writing about today.

Twice this month I've noticed something. At Benihana I saw two kids watching a fucking portable dvd player at the table. Tonight at El Torito Grille, I observed three kids sitting at a table, al playing Nintendo DS.

Now, in my day, we had to sit there and be good. We didn't have an electronic babysitter. And being the parent of a 6 year old, I now know how it feels to be responsible for someone fidgeting around. I have to tell her to sit still, not talk with her mouth full, etc. I wonder if that's what my parents went through, and if they had had a little handheld device to occupy my time that they would employ such measures.

By the way, I hate cilantro. Fucking despise it. Seriously. And El Torito had a little too much cilantro in site for my liking.

I love the rain. Sleeping with the sliding glass door open just to hear it. Love walking outside to smell it. Looking out the window to watch it. Just don't like the driving.

anywhere with you

I'm eating lunch at jack in the box. Seven minutes left on my lunch break.

I have nothing important or profound to say. No pearls of wisdom. No revelations.

I'm still listening to the same fucking songs.

I'm still ill.

I miss erick pressman. I miss a lot of people.
I wish me, erick and eric markley could just live in the same fucking city already. Fuck you dudes for living so far away.

I need a phone with a camera. Someone get me one for my birthday.

Ok. Three minutes left. Gotta go.

"And at the bottom it says thank you, and you can tell them to fuck off"

eucharist

im not the most political person, and i would never put up a front to make myself appear to be so. i dont even know what our vice president looks like.

ive been reading this morning about some bishop that the pope wants to lift the excommunication of. this bishop has DENIED THAT THE HOLOCAUST HAPPENED. like.. really? this still happens in this day and age? fuck.

im sick. i think i picked something up in vegas. i just dont feel good and the dayquil i took this morning is making me dizzy.

i feel like i could just throw motherfuckers through windows right now.

kthnxbai

hella vegas kids say hella

last week was erakuhs birthday and i wanted to do something fun, besides you know going to disneyland and benihana, which we do a lot .

thought about going to vegas, so saturday i checked rates and found a good rate at Mandalay Bay, which i love to stay at.

worked all day saturday, and hadnt slept very well friday night so i was already tired.

packed hastily and made it on the road around 9pm.
checked in around 2:30.
went to sleep around 6, woke up at 930.
got ready, checked out, and headed over to the Mirage because i read that the buffet had 3 stars.

im a big fan of buffets. i love the selection and value.
i wouldnt have given it 3 stars, but the apple gelato was something new to me and i loved it.

cruised around, shopped, and hit the road on the way back around 7. the drive home was slightly painful due to lack of sleep and belly full of 25 different kinds of food and 17 different kids of Coke.

woke up today and came to work at Commissary. just found out its Groundhog's Day, and Phil saw his shadow.